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Spring 2011

2011-04-05T23:58:00.002-04:00

So 2011 is going to be the best year ever and here's why!!

I found my biological family in November 2010 (: It has been an amazing journey and they are fantastic people. Kimi, an old friend from high school, called me up and after talking a bit we discovered she's dating my older brother Stephen. Isn't that insane!?

In January I got to take my first family trip with part of my family (Graham, David, Stephen and Kimi). We went to the aquarium and it was wonderful!

Stephen (the boyfriend not the brother!) and I had a fantastic Valentines Day this year...we had our first picnic!

I got accepted to Sigma Tau Delta English Honor Society.
My choir got to sing in concert with grammy award winning sextet Eighth Blackbird.

And for the rest of the year I have these things to look forward to:
PARIS STUDY ABROAD June 30 - August 4 :)
Avenged Sevenfold concert with my little brother in May <3
Taylor Swift concert in Nashville in Sept with Cheyenne!
AWA with Katie, Martina, and Neil
Savannah (possibly) with Jazzy, Callie, and some others.
My 21st birthday!!!
2 years with Stephen <3 <3
Surprise birthday trip for Cheyenne...haven't quite decided yet but I know I want to do something!

This is going to be the best. year. EVER.

Oh and as far as school goes everything's pretty awesome...I've been writing for the student newspaper and i like all my classes (topics in drama, writing for public communications, british lit, and shakespeare!) Especially Shakespeare. So super awesome.

Well I can't think of anything else.

Mandatory Semesterly Blog Post

2010-09-22T21:51:00.002-04:00

Once again it is time for me to update my once a semester post. I was supposed to keep up with this regularly but of course I didn't. I can't seem to commit to anything. Hm.

Well this summer was awesome. What have I done since July..hmm..well I enjoyed my last few weeks with Stephen and we celebrated our one year anniversary :) Which was lovely. He cooked me breakfast and we had a very lovely day.

School has begun and I really like it thus far. I'm taking American Lit, British Lit to 1660, Statistics, Professional Editing, and of course Women's Ensemble. American lit is pretty boring...I haven't really enjoyed anything we've read so far except Nathaniel Hawthorne, and he just talks at us the whole time. British Lit is a little better, the teacher actually gets us to work together and the stories are a bit more interesting (Sir Gawain and the Green Knight anyone?). Statistics is math and I don't like it, but the teacher is nice and let us use a cheat sheet on our first test, getting me a 95. :) Professional Editing is really hard but I like it a lot and I got a 93 on the first test. I need to start looking at internships. Merh! I was going to go to the career fair tomorrow but I'm not sure anymore. :/ I don't really have anything on my resume yet. But maybe I should...I dunno. SIGH. I guess we'll see.

What else, what else. I dunno. Food prep is awesome. Cheyenne being back is awesome. I love life right now!

yawn

2010-07-01T10:29:00.002-04:00

I don't know what made me want to randomly update this, because I have been quite terrible about doing so. I suppose I shall try to summarize my summer so far. Maybe I'll get better about updating this...maybe not. We shall see.

Well I pulled 4 A's and a B (econ, grr) last semester. Woo!
I've been working like craaaazy. I got 40 hours this week. Yay me! And I started learning to do food prep, which is super awesome and fun. I love it!
I've taken a lot of fun trips this summer. Went to Disney with Stephen for his birthday...we went to Hollywood Studios and Animal Kingdom. It was really great! Oh and I set up an awesome scavenger hunt for him and his gifts..he liked it (: I also got to see Cheyenne whom I miss very very much!!
Stephen went back to school for a month. LOSER. :(
Went to PCB with Callie for MYYYY 20th birthday!!! :) It was super great and fun. A bunch of stingrays swam through us while we were standing in the ocean. It was amazing!
This weekend I'm going to Stephen's family cabin for the 4th. It'll be the only different thing I"ve ever done for the 4th as far as I can remember....I always go to the neighborhood party in Columbus..lol.
Nicole took me to the aquarium to see the planet shark exhibit for my birthday, it was quite awesome. :) We had a great time!

I got a ps3 and a new tv for my birthday. YAYAYYAY. I'm thinking about starting a game review blog. I'm also thinkingn about starting a fitness blog, because I've gained 10 pounds in college and that makes me SAD FACE. D: Laura put all her fitness magazines out for us to enjoy so hopefully that'll give me some motivation. I also found an 8 week beginners guide running program online that I want to try. But if this blog is any indicator, blogging probably isn't my best motivational tool. Hahaha. Ah well.

Hrm. Well, that's all for now. Until next time..

I will be earth, you be the flower.

2010-04-20T17:24:00.003-04:00

Hellooooo little bloggy that I have ignored for oh so very long!! Let us summarize my semester, shall we?

Sooo on the school front, I feel totally unmotivated.
Econ is boring, I think I'll pull an A or B but I just dont' find it interesting.
My science teacher does nothing but push his green beliefs on us, and our tests have the stupidest questions ever (real life example: Demography is the study of demographics, true or false?).
English Studies is pretty interesting, we just finished reading Wuthering Heights. I just don't want to write the documented essay we're supposed to be doing. Bleh.
Chorus is fun as always. We sang O Fortuna recently...which I've ALWAYS wanted to sing! I'm so glad we did it. I love the music we're doing now, too. It's all 'earthy' music, because our concert is on Earth Day.
Language & Linguistics SUCKS. We have a project Thursday, then our final the Thursday after, so I'm almost done, but dear God the teacher is just sooo dull and he doesn't know how to teach at all.

I registered for Fall classes today. My schedule:
MW:
American Lit 2-315
Professional Editing 5-615
TTH:
British Lit to 1660: 930-1045
Statistics 2-315
Chorus 330-430

I'm SO EXCITED about professional editing. Like, ridiculously so. :) Okay moving on from school stuff.

I'm kind of tired of work. I try to act happy when I go in, but usually I just don't feel up to it. There's just SO much drama, it's absolutely exhausting.

I've had an excellent semester socially. Cheyenne and I joined a group called NatureBound, which does a lot of awesome outdoorsy activities. I've gone camping and horseback riding with them, and just did white water rafting Sunday. There's other things I've wanted to do but not really had time.
I got to visit Whitney back in January.
Stephen and I celebrated Valentine's Day at zoo atlanta and the aquarium, and I cooked him dinner (it was actually good!)
My parents took Stephen and I to Sea World and the Magic Kingdom for spring break, and it was excellent! It was Stephen's first time there and he actually really liked it.
Callie and I have been hanging out a lot and she's probably the BESTESTESTESTSET roommate ever. :)
Obviously Stephen and I are doing really really well. <3 we're going to a concert tomorrow. :)

I have a lot of plans for summer. I want to beat God of War, go to the beach, read a few books, go to Chattanooga with Stephen, go camping...lots of other stuff.

April's been a pretty depressing month. I'm glad this semester is ending.

Maybe I'll update again after the summer :P

I can't face the dark without you

2010-01-13T12:19:00.002-05:00

Hello, bloggy world. What a ridiculously long time its been since I updated! Lets seee...

I finshed out last semester with A's in everything but stupid political science, which I made my first C in. BOOOOOO. Screw C's. Stupid. :(

Christmas break was good. I spent most of it working, or with Stephen or friends. I only came home for the week of Christmas, which was good...I got lots of great prezzies, and I got to see my wifey at the end of the week! :)

Also Stephen went with my parents & me to visit my relatives in Jacksonville, which was alright.

Now my semester has started. I had to drop my Third Reich class because of its workload. :( I was really excited about that class but it has a 15 page research paper, an ORAL midterm in front of the class, plus tons and tons of homework and 3 textbooks (which I've already bought...damn it) and just tons of shit that I just don't think I can handle. So I've picked up Intro to Language and Linguistics! It's at 5, so now schedule is reversed now...I have 2 before lunch and 3 after instead of vice versa.

Also, Cheyenne, Veronica, and I are going to take a Zumba class at 6:45 on Tues/Thurs! I can't wait! It's like an aerobic dance workout class. So, this is going to cut into my work schedule a lot, but oh well..maybe if I talk to Morgan, she'll help me out since I have nothing to do on M/W/F except work :P

My other classes, though, aren't too bad. Econ is easy so far...we've spent 2 classes talking about the difference between communism and capitalism o_O; Science is easy also, the teacher is really scattered but funny and doesnt' care about much...English Studies is going to have a lot of work, but no tests, so that'll be fun. papers galore!!! :) Chorus is SO MUCH FUN, I love our Valentine's Day music!!! It's probably bad that I like the depressing, heart break song based on Emily Dickinson's "Heart! We Will Forget Him!" the most, but oh well. And obviously I dont know about Lang yet.

I'm going to YH this weekend. Yay!

Oh and I'm super sad not to be taking French this semester, so I bought a French daily calendar to keep me on my toes, francaise-wise. :)

Au revoir pour maintenant, mes amours.

When God gives you lemons, you FIND A NEW GOD!!!

2009-11-29T17:39:00.002-05:00

Just kidding in the post line, I just had the powerthirst video stuck in my head and it makes me LOL a lot. If you don't know what I'm talking about go look up powerthirst (1 2 and 3) on youtube. :)

So it's time for that periodic update. Let's see...

Work is okay, but its been stressful this weekend. Black Friday I worked like, 13 hours. And for the first part of it everyone was super pissed off about everything and yelling and being rude. It upset me a lot and I was happy to get out of there. The night shift wasn't as bad, I was working with Megan & Andy who are 2 of my favvie CFA people EVER!!! :)

Money is still tight, and made even more so by the fact that the stupid fake Google scam that I fell for is STILL CHARGING ME!! I thought I cancelled it--I haven't seen charges since SEPTEMBER--and today I have a whopping $99 charge!! That was most of the money in my account. :/ I'm really upset about it.

School is ALMOST OVER!!! YESSSS! Oh I cannot wait I'm sooo excited. I just have to write a pols paper and take my finals and I'm done. :) This semester has been crap. i really feel like I haven't been myself. Lindsay at work called it the 'sophomore slump'. I'm thinking next semester will be a lotttt better, because this is my schedule (I only have tuesday thursday classes :D)
8 -915 am-The Third Reich (yes I'm taking an elective on the third reich. be jealous)
930-1045 am- Econ 1100
11-1215- Science 1102 (yay for finishing cores!!)
LUNCH BREAAAAK.
2-315- Intro to English Studies (yay for first major class!!)
330-430- Chorus
EPIC WIN.
Also I'm going to take 1 or 2 fitness classes Monday/Wednesday. Get stoked!

And Stephen and I are doing fabulously. He's so good to me! We have tickle fights and he makes me hot chocolate when I'm sad and he is basically perfect. <3 I dont' think I could ask for a greater happiness than what I have with him. *dreamy sigh* :3

Well if I think of anything else I'll update. Au revoir!

I swore to myself that I'm content with loneliness;

2009-10-27T17:33:00.003-04:00

'cause none of it was ever worth the risk...well you are the only exception <3

Hello bloggy world. I never seem to update, do I? I'm better about it than Lindsey though :P Anywhos...

The semester is getting a (little) better. I had a music test today that I'm sure I aced. I had my second political science test last Thursday, which I think I made a C on. Not that great, but better than 59. Also, we have a reserach paper in that class, PRAISE THE LORD! Maybe I can salvage my grade after all. I love the music we're learning in Chorus. Psychology is boring...I could make an A if I tried harder..meh. French is hard to learn, but my teacher is so lenient about everything that the tests don't even matter.

I gave up on the Disney Store job. It would've been nice to work there but they're not flexible with seasonal workers, so it's not really worth it in my opinion. Money is still tight though; I just bought my mom's, Andy's, Megan's, and Stephen's christmas gifts. Broke, broke, broke. Haha.

The drama refuses to end. I know you're behind this, I know you know what's going on. how could you lie to me and cover up someone's hurtful words? I'm so sick of the drama. I just want it to end.

I'm really happy for Josh & Lindsey. They're probably my favoritest couple EVAR. They're so perfect for each other. And I've never seen her this happy. I'm so happy for her. :)

This past weekend Cheyenne and I went to a party with Andy & Megan at UGA, went to the symphony, went to eat at Cheesecake Factory (OMGYUM), and generally goofed off and had a fabby weekend. <3 Sceneit! is the coolest game ever.

Stephen is the best boyfriend EVAR. Just saying. Umm. I can't really explain how wonderful he is. But trust me he is AMAZING.

I was missing you a lot this weekend. Why? I don't know. it made me nervous. But i'm okay now. I dont know what that was....I actually talked to my mom about it, and Lindsey, so I feel okay with being human. I dont' want that to come back though. It scares me. Blargh.

Au revoir, bloggy world.

Next time you point a finger I might have to bend it back or break it, break it off.

2009-10-09T21:57:00.002-04:00

Next time you point a finger, I'll point you to the mirror.

Sigh. I hate this semester. It's the worst i've had so far. It's not like I'm stressed out, overloaded, or can't handle my classes. It just...feels weird. I don't like it. I'm failing political science at the moment. I made a 59 on the first test...which sucks royal arse. It's sad though; for some reason I don't have ANY motivation this semester. I skipped three classes this past week, THREE! for shame. :( All my other classes I'm doing allright in, I just feel bored. I think I'm just really anxious to start taking classes for my major, which I've finally declared (English).

Money is really tight. Today I bought Cheyenne's christmas gifts (5 books, all of which I got for under a dollar on amazon..cheap ass am I), part of lindsey's birthday gift, and my robin costume for Halloween (Lindsey and I are going as Batman and Robin). How exciting! I still haven't heard back from the Disney store...apparently their background checks are taking a really long time to come in. boo.

I've been at my wits end with my friends lately. one in particular, but we won't name names. I wish I could show her that she's not always right, and that's she hurling herself into what amounts to a swirling vortex of doom, but she won't listen. She will continue to be headstrong, stubborn, and self righteous, and as much as I want to help her and to change her back into the girl I loved so very much, I fear that girl is gone for good, and i don't know what to do with this new girl. It's heart wrenching. I also wish, in general, that I was better at keeping in touch with people. I think a lot of my close friends from high school (i.e Nathan, Ester, Laine...) probably feel like I don't care about them anymore, which just isn't true.

Stephen and I are fabulous. Two months tomorrow, though it feels like so much longer. He is such a fantastic boyfriend. He treats me so well. Sometimes, I feel scared, like, how could I have possibly found something like this so soon, so quickly? i get scared that I"m going to mess up again. but I have a lot of faith in him, and us, if not myself. Haha.

Today, I got called a slut by a complete stranger for revealing in a blog comment that I lost my virginity at 15. For some reason, that really, really, really hurt me. It shouldn't; it was a total stranger, but eh. Feeling "slutty" is something I struggled with for a long, long, long time and have just recently managed to get over. Bah.

Anyways, that was an awfully long post. Paramore's new CD is awesome, btws.

Crepuscular

2009-09-29T17:22:00.002-04:00

Good evening, my dear little blog, whom I never update.

So we're almost at midterms. I've only had one test per class. Errrrrr.
Classes are quite well though, they're not too overwhelming (yet)

I'm trying to get a 2nd job at the Disney store because I'm not getting very good hours at CFA and I really, really, really need the money. Especially since 1)i owe my dad $225 for my cell phone bill. i went over on my texting. i thought i had unlimited; WRONG. 2)christmas is coming. and once again, i am wanting to buy too many people too many things. i'm going to TRY to limit myself to buying one thing per loved one and making them stuff but i'm not very creative. alas.

Cheyenne and I have been hanging out a lot; I love her TONS. We went to Acworth the other day and went to kohl's, target, and booksamillion. Can I just say I LOVE BOOKSTORES. And mama fail. Lol.

Uhhmm...oh yeah last week our campus flooded. It was INSANE. All of ATL has been underwater, including six flags. If you haven't seen the pictures, google image search "six flags flooded" It is insanity.

It was chilly out today. HOORAY!! :D

Errrm. I can't really think of anything else except that J'AIME MON PETIT AMI BEAUCOUP!!

back to the remedy

2009-09-14T20:17:00.003-04:00

hmm so today I've been in a pretty terrible mood.

first and foremost, i'm very tired and cranky.
secondly, 8 AM tests never = a good mood. even if you do well on them.
i locked myself out of my apartment.
i got in a fight with someone i don't even know over something stupid.
i got in a fight with a friend over something ridiculous.
french was simply overwhelming today
i was very tired at work today.
i think one of my friends is mad at me but i really have no way of knowing for sure.

i feel quite overwhelmed...like i really am fed up with a lot of things. blah!

i know things aren't so bad, i'll feel better later, just right now i'm kind of... grrrawr.

oh well.

in other news:
taylor swift was amazing
the braves lost but it was okay bc mama fail was there!
white water rafting was fun. i got bruises. hahaha. and stephen's family is fun.
albany was amazing. im so happy i got to see lindsey (and josh and stephen of course!) we had sooo much fun and i was so sad to leave :(

/end

showers are optional.

2009-09-03T13:02:00.003-04:00

School is progressing slowly. It's been nearly a month and I feel as if I've literally done nothing. I've had some reading assignments, online french homework, and I have 1 paper for french coming up. I'm so bored. Bleeeeeeh. I love Chorus though. Our music is awesome. :)

Uhhhmm..Sept is gonna be a busy month. TAYLOR SWIFT CONCERT TONIGHT YEAHHHHH!!!!!! :D Then Friday, Stephen-time, Saturday, Braves game, Sunday, rafting with Stephen & his fam. Then Stephen & Josh & i are going to visit lindsey in albany friday. Which I cannot wait for bc I miss and love my wifey and I neeeeeeed to see her!!! Then Josh's bday is the following weekend. Then Cheyenne and I are going to six flags the following weekend. Inbetween there I have school, work, NSCS induction, and 3 tests. WOO!

After chatting with cheyenne I decidede against doing the Disney College Program t his spring. I can always do it when I graduate (so long as I apply when I'm in college i'm good to go) and I was thinking about doing study abroad next summer and I don't want to be away from home for that long. So yeah.

Ohh and Stephen is amazing, for the curious amongst you. he's like..best friend and boyfriend rolled into one. I've never had such a long friendship with someone before dating them. At least not a real friendship where you actually hang out outside of work/school and talk about important things. It's basically amazing. <3

okay welll i really need to clean my room and i havent eaten or showered all day soo i need to get my butt in gear before chorus and the CONCERT. :) au revoir.

You're always on my mind, you're always in my heart..

2009-08-24T00:24:00.002-04:00

Wow, what a week! I'm so tired but i can't sleep.

My classes started this past week. I really like my political science class so far, my teacher is hilarious. gotta love teachers who curse with abandon ;) besides that, he really knows his stuff and i'm learning a lot about American politics, more than I expected, certainly. My psychology class however is a total drag so far, my teacher is dull and very 'by the book'. ew. and in chorus, I have been assigned as an Alto 1. i'm not gonna complain too much, but i would so much rather be an alto 2 :( french 2002 is gonna be hard, and music 1107 is gonna be easy. :)

annnd stephen met my parents this weekend! yeah, fun experience haha especially the driving 1 1/2 hours to young harris (north of kennesaw) to get him and driving 3 1/2 hours to columbus! but the time spent with him was well worth it :) he keeps me laughing, keeps me happy, keeps me feeling alive. it's fabulous. and i miss him. we had soo much fun. saturday especially, we went to target, hollywood connection, coca cola space science center, heritage park, strip mall, river walk, country's....man it was fun. i miss that kid. <3

in other news, i have a LOT on my to do list that i need to get done, soon.
also, i really need KSU police to start doling out tickets to the EFFING MORONS who don't know how to park at ksu place. note: when there's no more parking directly in front of your building,YOU LOOK IN THE OTHER LOTS, you dont park in the middle of the effing road!!!!!!! OMFG. annoying.

anyways, goodnight world (:

beginning again.

2009-08-16T23:14:00.002-04:00

So I have come a very...very...VERY long way in a year. I can't believe I'm starting my second year of college. It's awfully surreal. Here's my life:

Andy and Megan left me for UGA :( But we got to go to Six Flags and play one last game of hostage. And they seem to be loving it, so I'm very happy for them. :)

Work has been work. I got a raise, but other than that, it's just been the same old same old.

My apartment flooded a little over a week ago...haha. The hot water heater 2 floors up burst and all the water came screaming down the pipes into our first floor apartment. awesome. and then the apartment started to stink of mold & mildew so we had to move out for a few days while they tore up the carpet. my room is still messy bc i haven't had time to put my stuff back in order :/

Uhhmm, so, there's this guy, and I'm totally crazy about him :)
Yeah Stephen & I kind of got to the point where we were like okaayyy yeah this trying not to have a crush on you thing is totally not working. So now we're dating and life is fab. :) Even though he's lame and had to go 2 hours away to college...lamer. He is accompanying me to Columbus this weekend, which ought to be interesting. He makes me laugh. I'm so happy <3

Classes start in the AM, so I'm about to hit the hay. Just thought my nonexistant readers would like a little uppydate. :)

it's over.

2009-07-27T13:23:00.000-04:00

Finally, summer classes are over. I am so thrilled. I know I aced my history test. I know I made like, a low D on my trig final. lol. Oh well...I gave it my best, I wracked my brains until I was practically bleeding, and all I can say is I gave it my best, guess math isn't for me. I dont' care that much..I will bring my GPA back up next semester. Here's my projected grades:

Summer: History: A, Trig: D
Fall: based on current knowledge I have of the subjects I'm taking, I'm projecting...
Chorus:A
French2002: A or B
Psychology: A
Music1107: A
Political Science: A or B

easy,easy classes, I know I'll do well. (:

Anyways!
other than boring school stuff I don't have a lot to say...except I'm hungry, and I'm going to six flags with Stephen wednesday, and i got crappy hours this week, andI'm going to a braves game Friday night with Emily. REAL summer is finally starting..haha.

ahh.. ma vie, c'est fantastique.

2009-07-24T01:02:00.002-04:00

dear God,

I know I'm not a great Christian...usually I despise going to Church, I don't even have a Bible in my dorm room, and I don't pray very frequently. However, you have given me so much in my life. So much forgiveness, so much patience, as I rebelled again Your love. I know you will always be there for me, smiling down on me and waiting for me to realize that my headstrong ways will never work. You see right through my clouded thoughts and uncertain heart, and if only I'd let You, You'd show me the way. Please help me open myself up to your love and Your grace, because I dont want to feel overwhelmed any longer. I must have faith. You know where you are taking me, and I must give myself to that fully. I can never thank you enough for all the blessings that I take advantage of every day. Thank You.

Pslam 43:5 : Why are you downcast, o my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Saviour and my God.
Mark 8:35 : ...For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for Me and for the gospel will save it.

star trekkin across the universe!!!

2009-07-20T16:01:00.001-04:00

Wow I haven't updated in over a month! how depressing! Let me get on that right now.

School: Has been okay. Ish. History is just kind of going along, whatever, trig is kicking my tail though. It's almost over though, finals 1 week from today! I hate summer classes. :(
Work: Monotonous, as usual, but still I love my coworkers and the nice customers that make it all worthwhile!!

social life wise, I've been having a blast. i saw the midnight premier of transformers, which was incredible. just hanging out with people makes me happy :)

DISNEY!!
Ester and I were taken to Disney by my parentals for my 19th birthday. It was sooo much fun! Except the driving. We basically slept the whole way. But when we got there Thursday night (the 18th? I think?) LISA!!!! came and hang out with us and ate dinner with us. I missed her. :( Then Friday, the 19th, we went to Epcot. Which was so super awesome. i love epcot. the world pavilions are amazing, and the illumi-nations fireworks are incredible! The waits for the rides weren't too bad either, Test Track was supposed to be 90 minutes but we just hopped in the single rider line x) Then on my bday, the 20th, we went to Hollywood Studios, which was amazing! I hardly ever spent any time there in past visits, so I was super excited. The Aerosmith coaster and tower of terror surprisingly didn't have very long waits, and we got fast passes to the new toy story ride which was UNBELIEVABLY AWESOME! And the best part? I got to see my Mama Fail!!! Cheyenne was working the backlot tour so we paid her a visit, then she accompanied ester and me to downtown disney which I've never visited before and LOVED. We ate at the T Rex cafe which was incredible, it was decked out with automatronic dinosaurs and decorated to look like different geographical areas from ye olde prehistoric times. VERY cool and the food was amazing as well!! We had a fun night. And then driving on Sunday..eeww.

We had cow appreciation day at chickfila recently which was SUPER FUN, me and 2 othe remployees were the onl yones who dressed up like cows but I still loved it despite having to close middle :(

JACKSONVILLE BEACH:
Lindsey and I accompanied my parents to my mom's class reunion in Jacksonville Beach this past weekend. It was so LOVELY! Lindsey & I drove in my car so as to avoid much parental beatdownage. x) But we had so so much fun. We shopped wayyy too much but got lots of cute stuff, we ate sushi, we saw HARRY POTTER 6 AMAAZIIIINGGG MOVIE :), we shopped some more, we laid on the beach, we took insane pictures, we jammed, we talked. I'm so lucky to have a best friend that I can talk about literally EVERYTHING with. Some of the things we talk about, I would never talk about with anyone else. Srsly. Pictures on FB soon, lovers.

Otherwise I can't think of much to say.

Oh, I changed my major again. i'm not doing pharmacy. I would hatemy life forever if I did that. Sure I'd be rich but at what cost? I'd rather edit books, or be an English & French teacher at a middle or high school. :)

i'm sorry, so sorry, i'm sorry it's like this.

2009-06-11T01:09:00.000-04:00

Heylo everyone. I have been quite out of touch lately, though I'm not sure that anyone ever reads this (:

Well, let's seeeeeeeeee...

School is fine. I have 2 classes, 8 am history and 11 am trig (they're back to back, 2hr45min classes). History is okay, the teacher is just so boring. Honestly, I can't sit there and listen to you drone on for nearly 3 hours. it's painful. And trig...well, it keeps me on my toes. I made a 96 on my first test though :)

I haven't had much of a social life, though I did lose 5 bucks at poker the other night and went to morgan's lingerie party tonight which was hilariously awesome to say the least. and Laura is the best roommate ever. she's so much fun to talk to and be around! i love her to death.

work is soooo monotonous. end of story.

my birthday is in 9 days :) and i'm going to disney with poochy pal (ester) for my bday. yayayayayy! and then lindsey's coming to see me first weekend of july...yayayayayayayyyy!!!! also, i love cheyenne, she's an amazing friend. :)

oh, on that note, I believe its time I stopped handing out trust like candy bars. Cheyenne gets one, Lindsey gets one, my mommy gets one, Andy gets one. the rest of you can GTFO. none for you greedy a-holes.

not much else to say except there are ants in my room, i love netflix, i love star trek, and i can't wait for my spock shirt and my ninja turtles shirt to come in the mail.

pissed.

2009-05-29T09:55:00.000-04:00

hmmm well i've had an interesting 2 weeks. which is the last time I updated this, I think.

I worked my butt off these past 2 weeks. 42 hours last week, 38 this one.

Laura moved in, and I really really like her. Yesterday, she and I went to a KSUPlace cookout and played volleyball with some people, then went on an ice cream run (we got SO FREAKING MUCH ahahahaha) and watched The Secret Life of Bees. I really like her. She actually hangs out with me :P

And also, I've realized no matter how hard you try to make things okay, someone's going to come along and screw it all up. I thought everything was okay and I was fine with things the way they are. Then someone had to come along and dig stuff up and get him pissed off at me. I don't even understand what I did wrong, I wasn't the one fighting with him calling him names. I thought we were fine, but apparently, we're not.
But you know...it's whatever. I know I didn't do anything wrong and I didn't do anything to deserve his anger. I'm just going to hold my head high and go on about my life. Maybe after things blow over I'll try to reconcile things with him, but maybe not.

I can't wait until my birthday!! 22 days!!!
Also, Star Trek is amazing <3
And I miss my bestfriend :(

sweaty.

2009-05-18T18:35:00.001-04:00

so i just got done running for 30 minutes (well, walking/running haha) and working out for 15. i'm exhausted!

i miss lindsey. sunday we went swimming and hung out at my place with josh. it was FUN. it started raining like as soon as we got out of the pool though ROFL.

today i worked 830-330. I worked with our marketing director, Kim, at a golf tournament. It was really slow and all we did was sell raffle tickets & give free gifts to the golfers. we talked a lot and she told me a lot about her past, and i told her about stuff going on in my life. she's a cool person, very interesting to talk to.
then i went grocery shopping. i tried to keep my spending to under $23 because i have 423.06 in the bank. i spent nearly $200 this weekend!!!!! adfjaskdfjdsafhkajf!!! and i only spent $24 at walmart so go me (:
then when i came home my stupid roommate was using my PS2, again without asking. plus, she and her 2 friends left shit ALL OVER THE EFFING KITCHEN. seriously, it's disgusting, they could have cleaned up after themselves. i cannot wait for her to move out.

which reminds me that our new RA moves in friday. im' goign to miss shellie. :(

now i NEED a shower i'm nasty and sweaty hahaaha.

the fun continues

2009-05-17T00:38:00.001-04:00

my fun week only gets better.

i went to jameson's graduation party thursday night. it was a lot of fun. i got to see cheyenne before she leaves me for disney. and we played circle of death. we had so much fun. and i didn't sleep..hehe. :]

yesterday i came to columbus and me and lindsey and josh hung out. we got chinese and a movie and went back to my place. it was awesome. except that the sims hates my computer.

today lindsey and i went shopping and i got a cute french vocab book and a bunch of flip flops and other stuff from old navy. it was fun!! then we went to eat sushi at a japanese steak house. we sat at the grill and we ordered delicious sushi and we ordered salmon for me and steak for lindsey (not heather hahahahahaha sorry xD). the salmon was AMAZING. then we went and saw star trek with joshy. OH MY GOD STAR TREK WAS AWESOMEEEEEEE. i'm in love. i think i want to marry spock. HAHAHAH.

anyways, what a fun awesome week this has been. i'm at heathers apartment now. eating phish food ice cream while me & lindsey are on our computers.

ass carpet.

would you go all the way? be the one i'm looking for.

2009-05-14T13:00:00.001-04:00

What a wonderful week this has been.

mother's day was awesome. My mom loved her picture frame & books. i missed my parents lots!

i'm finished with my second semester of collge. I am now a college sophomore :O Seems to have gone by a lot faster than my freshman year of high school did. I made 3 A's--English, Chorus, French--and 2 B's--Math and Science. My math teacher emailed me and said she was very proud of me for pulling my grade up from a low C (!!!!!) to a high B. Now, I'm just waiting for summer classes. Technically they start the 28th, a thursday, but my classes are monday/wednesday only so i don't really start until June 1. :)

Tuesday I worked 7-12. I was going to hang out with Andy but he couldn't, so I took myself to dinner at this beautiful Mexican restaurant. I loved it--the area I sat in looked like a Mexican village around the walls, the ceiling was black with little lights for 'stars' and there was a gorgeous mural on the back wall.
Then Iwent to see Star Trek but the projector broke :( So i got a refund. Anna texted me and I ended up hanging out with her, Brandon, and James.

Yesterday I worked 8-4. I worked in the kitchen for lunch for the first time. It wasn't too bad because we were pretty slow but it was still fairly intense. Then Anna and I went to Arby's, Kohl's, and an awesome super Target. I bought a new body wash (it smells sooo good), a dry erase calendar + markers, some orange nail polish and some other things. We painted our nails and watched gossip girl at her place. So much fun! Then James & I watched the rest of Sweeney Todd and talked for a while.

Quite the lovely week indeed.
I see my wifey tomorrow :) We're going to eat japanese food and see star trek. yayayay!

My Perfect Life

2009-05-05T18:03:00.000-04:00

So today I had a fabulous day. After half-owning my french test, I went to the mall. I bought Seventeen and Cosmopolitan magazines, a book called Blue is for Nightmares (supposed to be a very good series), and a lolcatz book for my mom. So now she will be getting 2 book for mommy's day :)

I also went to Hallmark and bought her a glass water can picture frame with felt flowers in it, and a bunch of cards for people for mother's day. then i went to the food court, ate, and read my magazine. And then I bought 3 new pairs of shorts and 2 cute tops at 579. yay for spoiling myself!

In my magazine it had a section to fill out about your 'perfect life'. Envisioning your future is supposed to help you achieve it, so I gave it a shot. Here's what I cam eup with:

"Your perfect boyfriend is..."
Talkative, interesting, a good listener, attractive, honest, and funny. He will know when to back off and won't judge me. I can be completely comfortable and know he'll still love me. He'll let me be immature, rash, indecisive, and just plain stupid, and love me all the same. He will understand my imperfections and adore me regardless. He'll spoil me a little bit, compliment me often, and eradicate my insecurities

"Your perfect social life is..."
Spontaneous. I would love for my friends and me to do random things, like a weekend road trip or something. I'd also like to do more adventurous things, like rock climbing or white water rafting. Sometimes I need to be alone, but I'd love to get out of my dorm more frequently and enjoy the company of the people I love, whether it's a short walk just talking about life or a long drive to who knows where.

"Your perfect job is..."
Somethign that allows me interact with people and be happy. I don't want too many rules/bosses/whatever. To function, I need to know how to do my job, but be left alone to do it once I figure it out. I'm pretty independent in the work place, but I want to be able to show people all the love I have for them. Sometimes you wouldn't think I care about people, especially people that come to Chick-Fil-A demanding fish sandwhiches (really happened) and being generally rude, but truly I love people and want to include them in my daily life

"Your perfect friends are..."
Understanding but brutally honest. I need people to console me but give me a swift kick when I start getting too down. They accept me, flaws and all, and value my opinions and advice. They are loyal and trustworthy, and make me feel included and always, always know how to make me laugh.

What a fabulous day. :)

Dear God,

2009-05-04T23:48:00.001-04:00

I'm so tired of being disappointed.
I guess this is the part where all my selfish actions in high school come back to get me.
I'm feeling horribly down right now
...
bleh

note to self:
hope = BAD.

wow

2009-05-04T11:51:00.000-04:00

yeah so i definitely deleted that huge, ranting, bitchy post i posted saturday.

anyways.

today, i'm just going to pray.

Dear God,
Yeah I know I royally fail at trying to keep my life in order but I'm extremely headstrong and always think I know how to fix things. I know I can't fix things. I dont' understand why people do the things they do but I know that You will work everything out for me in the end. It's hard to trust You when, in the past, I've felt so let down by You. I know I don't appreciate You as much as I should, in fact I don't even totally understand You or how I feel about You yet. All I know is that I'm a miserable excuse for a person and I'm unworthy of any grace You bestow on me. Please, help me make it through finals week, and help me reach out. You know who I mean...haha. Thanks for listening, and I'm sorry for being such an idiot all the time. I love You, and thank You. Oh, and please help my best friend, she needs You and there's lots of stuff working against her. Thanks. :)

truth be told i miss you...and truth be told i'm LYING.

2009-04-29T20:52:00.000-04:00

It's almost over. All i have is 4 finals, a presentation, and a project....and I'm done with this semester. THANK YOU GOD. Then I get ready to start Trig and History! Wooohoo!!

I've been extremely happy lately. God is pointing me in new directions, and I'm enjoying every minute of it.
I want to do the Disney College Program in Spring '10. That means I'd live in Disney World from January-May '10 and I'd work there. How amazing is that?! Oh my god. I would love that so much. Working for Disney seems like an amazing experience plus it looks good on your resume!!
Also, I want to do an Ireland study abroad-possibly with Cheyenne- next summer.

Speaking of Cheyenne she is quickly becoming one of my closest friends, I love her very much and we have so much in common. I am very happy that God is putting really wonderful people in my life, he knows how badly I needed it.

Oh, and by the way, I've totally forgotten all about you. You don't haunt me anymore.

I don't really have much else to say.
I think I know what I have to do. I just have to do it.

i like your pants around your feet.

2009-04-26T19:17:00.000-04:00

So this has been a fun and interesting week.

School is quite nearly over and with every passing day I get more and more accomplished. Tomorrow I will have my english group project and 3rd math test done, both of which I feel I have completely OWNED. I'll also probably have my french final project done, but that's not really due for a week, just need my teacher to check it. :)

Thursday was the Nickelback concert which was AMAZING. Oh my godddd. First of all I was cute as hell. Teehee. Secondly, our seats were uncovered so when it started POURING DOWN RAIN Chris and I were like OMFGWTFWTF and had to run and jack some seats in the covered part of the arena. Then right before Nickelback went on the people whose seats we stole came back so we went and found James Melissa & Brandon and hung out with them. Saving Abel was okay, Seether was INCREDIBLE, and Nickelback was EFFING AMAZING. My memory card ran out of memory during "Animals" and I accidentally deleted my video of "Remedy" :( :( :( :( Very sad, Remedy is my favorite seether song.

Friday I woke up late for work because I set my alarm clock wrong, but I ended up picking up like 3 1/2 hours anyway so that was fun :) My Chorus concert was that night, and one of the alto 2s didn't show up leaving me and this other girl that is less than confident with our part. It still went pretty well though! My dad took us all out to eat at Texas Roadhouse afterwards, which was amazing, and we told the waitress it was my dad's birthday and they made him sit in the saddle hahaha :)

Saturday I worked an event which was so much fun! Basically I set up a spinning wheel and handed out free coupons to people while Elijah played with the kids as the Cow. I basically got paid to have fun. Then I picked up 2 hours when I came back. Helloooo awesome paycheck. :)
After work, Chris and I went out to dinner so we could talk about things. We went to the Melting Pot-OH MY GOD Most amazing restaraunt EVER. Too bad it's so expensive, it was definitely the best dining experience of my life. We had cheese fondue, the French Quarter which is shrimp and steak and chicken that you cook yourself, and then chocolate fondue which was probably the best thing I've ever put in my mouth ever.

And today I had a math study session (I'm goign to own that test in the face) and then my English group met. And...Cheyenne's about to come over and we're going to hang out for a little bit :) Yayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

I still haven't made a decision yet but I know I need to soon. I think I know which way my heart is leaning more, but it scares me because this decision affects the rest of my life. That sounds overdramatic, but it's true. I'm scared of losing, hurting, forgetting, trusting. I don't want to have to make this decision.

/End.

you were finished long before we had even seen the start

2009-04-20T22:41:00.003-04:00

in and out. back and forth. up and down. some days are better than others.
why am i still struggling to get over this?
it's not like it was ever that serious.
i guess hope digs into your soul deeper than you really expect it to.
i can't even listen to my favorite taylor swift song anymore because of you. thanks a lot.

it's so weird how life is like the tide.
sometimes it's high, like this weekend!
I spent time with Cheyenne Saturday after work. We got burger king, watched sweeney todd & ps i love you, and had a really long talk! It was so nice. She's great :)
I got a lot done this weekend. Homework and stuff. Though I still have a way to go.

other times are low.
I feel stuck in a rut. I need to get involved with something before I go crazy. I wish I could stop obsessing over things I can't change and things that I need to not worry about.
I need to focus on myself. And make myself happy. it's so difficult.

I need to spend some time with Lindsey PRONTO.
i miss you girl.

s'il vous plait.

2009-04-17T18:42:00.001-04:00

please, God, please, help me. I need Your strength.

I cannot see how I am going to make it to the end of the semester with my sanity and, more importantly, my GPA in tact. Honestly...I have six tests (four of which are finals), I have 3 projects-2 french, 1 english-,1 english paper, a science quiz, and online french homework. On the upside I finished my Math XL online homework today but uhh tha tonly took what 2 hours? Yeah. Great.
I know it's only going to get harder but i'm having a hard time adjusting. You'd think after senior project I'd learned to handle this crap...lol.

I can't stop worrying. I can't get some people off my mind. There are people I worry about who I am justified in worrying about because of the way life treats them and how unfair it is. There are pepole I worry about who am I not justified in worrying about because they have hurt me, or I have hurt them, and we'd all just be better off if I grew up and got over it.

I really need to start exercising but can't seem to find the time to do it. I go to class. I do homework. I go to work. I do homework. I go to sleep. Sometimes I watch Charmed, but that's my only vice--as if I hardly ever get to watch it.

Sometimes I think God got confused while concocting my personality. Sometimes I want to be really perfect. I can't stand being imperfect and letting people down bc I dont' have my shit together. Sometimes I just don't care and want to lay in bed and not think about the real world. I'm so indecisive it kills me. I CAN'T DO THIS FOREVER.

I wish I weren't so selfish, so indecisive, so lazy, so overweight, so unable to please.
This end of the semester crunch time has got me in a huuuuuuuuuuuuuge drag.

I need this semester to end in a pronto kind of manner before my head explodes.

Bright side: I'll have my French take home test done and turned in tuesday, my english paper done & turned in wednesday, my science quiz done tuesday and then I'll have considerably less to worry about.

/End obnoxiously long rant

i was born to tell you i love you, and i am torn to do what i have to

2009-04-10T00:42:00.000-04:00

what a fun, interesting week this has been.

mostly i've been catching up on school work. or trying to. i attempted to start my french final project tonight and it was a butt-kicker. i only got a handful of questions answered and i still have a long way to go. my goal is to finish it before my smaller project is due.

work has been fun. i enjoy the people i work with--mostly, there's only a handful i'd take on a white water rafting trip though :P i hate going through the monotony of working at chick-fil-a, but i guess i better get used to it! it's all i've got for now, and my coworkers make it worth it all. so do paychecks that kick butt like the one i got today :)

i have a C in math and tha tmakes me angry. i had a 4.0 last semester, and now, if i make straight a's throughout college the best i can get is a 3.9 because i have a B in science and a C in math. grrr. ANGER. i'm lazy and need to do something about that.

speaking of lazy, today was relaxing. french class was cancelled so i got to sleep in, and i didn't have to work. i spent the day finishing season 3 of charmed and just enjoying being in my own company. it was nice. :)

with regards to my two person situation, i'm still not totally over what happened nearly a month ago. i think watching charmed helps. i know their situations aren't real but i can really relate to the pain that they go through in certain situations. but yeah...i really wish things had happened differently between us. all i can think about is getting through each and every day and moving forward, trying not to dwell.

on the other hand, i'm torn with the other situation. at some moments, i want nothing more to experience something new, see if god has someone better planned for me, see if there's someone else out there that im' meant to be with. the rest of the time though, i want nothing more than to make things work between us, to fall back into that comfortable, carefree, special love i had. i don't want to lose that safe feeling and stumble around blindly anymore. i'm never confident in my decisions, i'm always wondering 'what if'? and i know he doesnt' deserve to be put through that, but what can i do? i don't know what i want. i don't know what to do. i wish god would send me a sign, anything. which way do i go? it could affect my life forever.

wow this turned into a rant. i have work in the morning. easter this weekend.
goodnight everyone.

you've got all that i need.

2009-04-07T11:50:00.002-04:00

It's been a week since i last updated so I figured it was time I did that again :)

well, let's see. work and school? yeah that's basically my life.

but this weekend lindsey came to see me! with her leetle seester and audrey!! we had a ton of fun. we watched disney movies with josh and chris, went shopping ( a lot), screamed MCDONALDS, tried to clean up a messy baby, got our nails did, ate entirely too many boiled peanuts (and other things), and generally had a really good time. i wish lindsey could move up here to kennesaw with me :(
i bought orange converse this weekend, eff yes! they're so awesome.

today i registered for fall classes. it's going to be a rough semester, i can tell you that now. i have 2 8 am classes, one on mon/wed and one on tues/thurs. EFF MY LIFE.

i have a science test today and i need to start working on the study guide, since i'm meeting stephanie in 30 minutes..lol. or an hour 30. not sure yet. XD

things are getting better all the time. i dont' miss things as much. i mean i do miss them but it's not as difficult to think about it. it's almost like a dream that never really happened.
as for the flip side of the situation, i'm desperate to be on my own for a while but having a hard time getting that message through and also sticking to it.

i miss my wifey :(
time for homeworks, yayyyyy.

a quick fix won't ever get you well

2009-04-01T01:47:00.002-04:00

this week feels so long. it feels like it should be thursday. bleeehh.

i've been watching charmed. i'm almost done with the 2nd season. <3 since i have nothing to focus on in english tomorrow i may just try to finish it tonight.
classes are fine, i was going to skip science today until i discovered that i had a quiz today. thankfully this random guy, john, approached me out of nowhere before class and asked if i'd studied and i was like errr nooo..i just found out about this quiz haha. and he let me use his study guide!! very nice. :) so i think i aced it. THANKS JOHN!

also in science today one of the students was like, DRUNK as hell. he started randomly yelling out things during class, something about speeding or whatever and our teacher thought he was taking a phone call because what he was saying had absolutely nothing to do with what the lesson was on...and the guy was like naww man i'm talking to you!... nevermind. weird!!!

anyways..
tonight after work i went to jameson's place and we watched a movie. steven came too. we watched 88 minutes which was very good

some days are harder than others, but it's getting better. i wish i would stop investing my hope and my emotions into people so quickly. all it does is screw me over. i really shouldn't be as hurt or care as much as i do..but, i do. why do i let myself get my hopes up!? bleehhhh. i can't ever seem to hang around people that genuinely care about me for long, but throw someone at me that's not a sure thing and i'll probably be all over that.

i hate being a girl sometimes. ha.

i'm hungry. i'm going to eat/watch charmed/go to bed/regret this in the morning

wait who am i kissing?? hahaha

2009-03-29T14:21:00.000-04:00

friday i talked to steven and even though i'm still disappointed over how things ended up but I think we will be happier as friends. So all is good. and i registered for my summer classes. the history class i wanted was full so i had to rearrange my schedule and now i have history from 8-1045 and trig from 11-145 on monday/wednesday. i'm going to be in class from 8-145. UGGGH.

annnnddddd yesterday was heather's birthday :) we had so much fun! we helped set up while michelle took her out. we surprised her and i got the best picture of her coming in the door getting sprayed with silly string. ashton & jordan played her a song that they wrote for her, and she opened presents, and busted open a pinata that had random stuff in it...candy and koolaid and tampons and condoms and candles...? hahaha. and a birthday button and sash.

and we played circle of death which was fun. hahaha. looong night.
but it was fun.

i've been trying to work out this whole situation with chris but i don't know what to do. i'm trying to maintain some distance but ... i have no idea what i'm doing. i don't want to just cut him out of my life but i can't keep continuing to let him think somethin will definitely happen in the future.

i don't know.
my head hurts.

my mom is cooking spaghetti tonight. :)

I LOVE SCIENCE. I LOVE SCIENCE. I LOVE SCIENCE.

2009-03-27T14:40:00.003-04:00

that will be my mantra for the next ... er... the rest of my life.

yeah, so these past few days have been pretty good. thursday i only went to french and totally wrote a kick-butt paper. :) work was allright, we inducted james and george into the transformers crew. so now we have me (optimus prime, eff yeah!), megan (megatron), andy (ironhide), stephen (bumblebee), james (starscream), and george (ratchet). YEAH!!! we're all going to see transformers 2 in july c:

annnd today, i had a meeting about my major with the head of the chem dept. she was really super nice and really helped me out a lot. I'm going to have to lose some things in my life but I think that if I can do this it'll be totally worth it. I'll have to stop taking french, and maybe even chorus. I'll have to quit chickfila sooner instead of later, because the 3 pharmacy schools in Georgia--and I'm shooting for UGA which is the hardest to get into--require lots of community service, and you have to have pharmacy experience so i'm going to have to work in a pharmacy. I can't do 2 jobs and school. Sorry CFA. Also, I'm going to have to take a LOT of chem. If I make my major in Biology, though, I can still get the pre-pharm courses but take upper level BIO courses instead of CHEM. She said since I've always been shaky in chemistry, it might be better to do that bc they look at your GPA before anything else. I'm going to have to drop my social life all together!! But i think it'll be worth it in the end bc when I'm a pharmacist, I can have fun with my friends and family and provide for my family and it'll be all worth it :)

the best part is I don't have to decide if i want to go chem or bio until not this fall but the next one bc the classes are basically the same until that point :)

I'm nervous though. I need to go get some confidence!!!
At 3:30 I register for my summer classes, after that I'm leaving for Columbus.

i need a good time.

2009-03-25T09:35:00.002-04:00

i kinda want to learn how to line dance, thanks to alan jackson's video "good time" :)

you know, this week really sucks, but i'm trying to focus on the silver linings instead of the clouds. i think i pulled something in my back.

however i have a math test today and i'm really hoping i do well on it. i actually studied this time. and i'm about to study some more as soon as i'm done updating.

i'm halfway through the week. i can make it! i have faith in myself. :)

LINDSEY UPDATE MORE OFTEN.

au revoir.

breathe out, so i can breathe you in...hold you in.

2009-03-24T11:10:00.002-04:00

this week is going really slowly. :

a lot of crap has happened. when it rains, it pours, as they say. my printer wouldn't re-install on my computer. my sinuses have been messed up since sunday night. i was sick this morning. at work last night, the power went out for about an hour and when it came back on we had to re cook EVERYTHING (sandwiches, nuggets, strips, fries, chargrills). also at work last night i had to tell my friend/coworker that i saw her boyfriend cheating on her with her best friend. i mean i told her at the end of work, but i still had to tell her.

however, i believe that God is trying to teach me something. I'm going to ask steven to hang out Friday because I have some things I need to ask him and say to him. I believe God is trying to teach me how to be alone and how to be happy with myself.

That said...here are the good things that happened this week :)
-I got to study math for most of Sunday so I have a better understand of what the test is going to be like.
-I have figured out pretty much what I want to do, major wise, and summer class wise.
-I made a 100 on my last quiz in English.
-I got my printer working this morning.
-I had a really delicious coffee this morning before French class.
-Andy and Megan are wonderful friends.
-Lindsey really cares about my well being and I love her very much for putting up with my stupidity and trying to talk me out of doing stupid shit.
-I got Chris & Heather's birthday gifts ordered.

See? Things aren't so bad. I'm still sad/disappointed/hurt. But it'll be okay.

i get by with a little help from my friends

2009-03-23T07:29:00.001-04:00

first of all, have you ever heard that linkin park song that goes, "i got a heart full of pain, head full of stress, handfull of anger held in my chest" ?
yeah, welcome to day 1 of my recovery process.

secondly, once i got into the dating scene i always dreamed about dating someone like that. smart, funny, good-looking, ambitious, sarcastic, caring, good taste in music. here's the key word: dreamed. the only guys i've ever dated have either been weird beyond belief or gay. well except chris but i seem to have an aversion to guys that ACTUALLY LIKE ME. how fucked up is that? anyways, those guys i dream about dont actually want to date me. and it figures that i would find one like that, think i had a chance, and get shot down like the pathetic dreamer i am.

i hate being led on and blind sided. i hate thinking everything's okay and then it's not. if i see the end coming, i can brace myself and act like it's okay and get over it. not this time. i didn't see this coming at all.i hate myself for letting myself get in so deep so fast. i hate myself for thinking i actually stood a chance.

anyways, the only thing i can really say is that this hurts, a lot.
however, as lindsey said, time will make things better.
i just hate waiting for time to move. i know i'm young and all but God, please just send me that person that is going to make me safe, comfortable, happy, and whole...that's all I want, really.

I'm about to go to English. This week is going to be hard...especially Tuesday. I know I'll be fine at the end of this, I just want the end to hurry up and get here.

ALICE LIVES.

2009-03-22T14:51:00.001-04:00

Hallelujah, my computer is alive and well. Missing microsoft office (OMGWTF) but otherwise fine.

I've had an eventful week.
My computer ate itself Sunday night/Monday morning.
Steven & I celebrated st. patrick's day together with my chorus concert, a movie, going out with jameson & anna & trip, and basically just having a ton of fun. :)
I got my computer fixed...Thursday? Friday? I got it back Friday, anyway.
Saturday (last night) I went to my first ever party. It was pretty exciting, Megan and her two friends Katy and Jane and I went to the mall, and we ate, then they closed so we went to Starbucks until Andy could sneak out. Then we kidnapped him and went to the party. Which was..interesting.

I enjoyed a few drinks and a few things I had never heard of before (like an irish car bomb haha), saw a coworker cheat on his girlfriend with girlfriend's best friend (fuck face.), played by the bonfire, and had a good time with my friends. I was a bit dizzy so Andy drove me home. He's awesome <3 They all crashed at my place when we got home at like 3 am

And..today I woke up around 9:30 (wtf) and did laundry, and i've basically been doing math homework like all day. and at 3:30 i'm going to a study session bc we have a test wednesday and i NEED to ace it. like, my sanity depends on acing this effing test. sad news is it doens't end until 5:30 so i'll be up to my corpus collosum in math for 2 hours. :(

well thanks for reading.
l'amour et au revoir.

chex mix numbah one food snack in the land!!!

2009-03-15T23:31:00.002-04:00

spring break is over :( SADDDDD.

i had a lot of fun in panama city with heather (and my family..haha).
we spent a lot of time on the beach. playing in the ocean and laying out and stuff. :) we also went exploring. i bought a new swimsuit. we watched tv. we joked and had fun. IT WAS GREAT.

my dad treated us to LOVELY dinners...we ate at this SUPER NICE restaraunt called capt. anderson's. oh my goddd it was amazing. i have a new affinity for shrimp :P

i'm sooo sick of driving though. i drove home from pc and then to kennesaw from columbus.
chris and i talked today. i think we're FINALLY on the same page..ish. i think he finally understands where i'm coming from on this whole thing. which is a good thing. he and i are still planning on going to the nickelback concert. i think by then, everything will be fine.

btw the new kelly clarkson cd is AMAZING. check it out.

i miss so many people. :(

goodnight.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

bored.

2009-03-10T19:52:00.002-04:00

today was boring. i actually wish i had homework to do, so i could be doing something.

i woke up around 1:30 (lazy haha).
i got online.
i watched tv.
i sat on my butt.

all. day.

i'm so bored.
i tried to shop for bathing suits online, but i couldn't find anything i liked. well, i did, but they were super expensive. i found a sexy betsey johnson one that was $112 for the top and $90 for the bottom. HA.

thursday we leave for pcb. wooohooo!!
i might catch up on my mathxl. or find a game to play online. i might even actually DO lindsey
s homework instead of just helping her with it XD

fabby weekend.

2009-03-10T00:07:00.002-04:00

Yesterday was lots of fun even though my wifey left me :(

we got donuts from dunkin donuts. i ran into an old friend and i was really surprised to see him, though i'm glad i did. i've missed him. josh and lindsey and i went to the mall. i got these superfly orange feather earrings. and we saw undies that said smack that and get some on the ass. HILARIOUS.

we had a ton of fun :) except when we had to pick up pinecones at my parent's house. that wasn't fun.
josh tried to take a picture of me peeing. ass.

i got a little crazy sunday night and that's all i'm going to say hahaha.

i stayed the night at the apartment. chris and i had a good talk this morning. i feel a lot more comfortable with the whole situation, and i really think that i made the right decision. god only knows what the future holds but i'm still convinced i made the right choice.

i took my mom to see hotel for dogs and we ate at cici's today. also, she cut my hair and it looks SUPERFLYYYYY. :)

PCB ON THURSDAY!

i'm hooooome!!

2009-03-07T19:08:00.002-05:00

So i'm updating from Lindsey's computer (sorry :P) bc i left mine at home. This weekend has been fabulous so far. Sucks it's almost over. :( i've been waiting for this weekend FOREVER and now it's almost over. :( We've had tons of fun though.

Thursday night i went with steven to see the midnight premier of Watchmen, which was really really good!! I love that movie, even though the sex scenes were totally unnecessary...lol. I had a great time :)

Friday, Megan and I decorated Andy's car for his birthday. Pictures coming to facebook soon! He really liked it and was really surprised. It was awesome! Then I came back to columbus and met Lindsey and Josh at the mall...we ate and went back to the apartment and watched Repo and Zack and Miri Make a Porno. Great movies :)

And today Lindsey and I ate lunch at TGIFridays and explored the strip mall. we bought awesome martini glasses!!! We went to Hollywood connection with Josh and chris and we ate at mcdonalds and rocked out to awesome music! now we're back at the apartment watching Family Guy, then we're going to send watchmen at 11:30.

Awesome weekend. :)

I'm alright, I'm just fine. And you're a tool. So...so what?

2009-03-04T23:14:00.002-05:00

Woooooo I'm in a super good mood today!

Last night was fun. :) I'm always in a SUPER good mood after nights like that.
English only lasted like 40 minutes today, which was nice.
I made a 100 on my math test re-do, which averaged with my first score of 77 to make an 88.5!!! :)

I'm halfway through the week, which means
1. all of my major assignments have been turned in :) (except my science test, which is tomorrow)
2. only two more days until I see my best friend!!!!!!
3. only two more days until SPRING BREAK!!!

Work was fun, I worked 2-9, I was on headset and I got to see Andy & Megan who put me in a good mood. I love big hugs. :D

I've been studying for my science test tomorrow and I actually feel prepared which is a suuuper good feeling! Wish me luck.

Watchmen midnight premier tomorrow with Steven, yayyyy!!!

Goodnight, everyone.

I'll make it to the moon if I have to crawl.

2009-03-03T11:11:00.002-05:00

Yes, I will.
RHCP = <3

Anyways, I am soooooo happy with life right now. I have wonderful friends to think for making me realize what an idiot I can be. (: I love you guys sooo much. I am fighting tooth and nail to get through this, and I will come out on top.

Yesterday I got to hang out with Ester, which was fabulous because I haven't seen her in forever. And I love her lotsssss :) AND we got dippin dots...even though it was like 2 degrees outside..haha :)

Annnnnd today I'm going to be really really busy :[ Bah.

I canNOT wait until this weekend.
I figured out how I can get Lindsey up here in Kennesaw, and I'm super super super super SUPER excited :)

even if you put a ring on it, it's not necessarily yours forever.

2009-03-01T23:56:00.003-05:00

today i pulled the promise ring chris gave me for christmas out of my purse by accident. funny how we exchanged rings but it didn't mean anything in the end.

but today, after he proclaimed he was in a relationship, i think i snapped. well, in two ways. first i chewed him out and told him to go f**k himself. and then i apologized and got rational minded and thought....who really cares? Everyone knows this was entirely too fast, especially me, and I've got someone that I'm actually taking my time with, getting to know, etc, before getting into a relationship with them.

And that, to me, is perfect.

Today was great. I did laundry and homework,and got to have starbucks with Andy and Megan. Whom i love A LOT. Lindsey and I had a great conversation.

"i dont like having balls dangling over my eyeballs"
"WTF"

ahahahahaha. (:

I looooove my life!

laaaaaame.

2009-03-01T10:35:00.002-05:00

so, my parents told me not to come home this weekend because there were tornado warnings/flooding/gusting winds/etc. and then later that evening when i was getting ready to go meet someone, they said everything was fine. okay. stupid. and now today it's SNOWING.
go figure. :(
and i'm getting sick. double :(

but oh well, hopefully it'll snow up here. it's supposed to. just right now all it's doing is raining.

i really need something to do today. besides homework and laundry haha.

tomorrow ester and i are hanging out! (:
then thursday night steven and i are going to the midnight showing of watchmen!!
and friday night i'm going to another midnight showing of watchmen with josh heather lindsey and the crew (the crew tends to be variable haha)
and all weekend i get to have serious best friend time. :)

yay life!!

i feel kind of bad.

2009-02-27T11:13:00.003-05:00

i was on this website earlier, http://www.fmylife.com/ and basically people submit short sentences summing up what ruined their day. at first, i thought it was really funny.

one girl's car got tagged in shaving cream and used condoms and had "cheater" written on it...but turns out the guy that it was meant for has the same car as her. and she's a virgin.

but the more i read, the more depressed i felt. some of this stuff was just plain horrible. one guy's family got a new family portrait above their mantle, without him in it, and it was dated the day after he left for college.

another girl told her boyfriend she liked jello because it was fun and jiggly, and he said "like you, except the fun part"

and another guy lost 20 pounds, and when his mom saw him, said "you better keep going"

is that not just inexplicably cruel?

anyways, this weekend i'm going to talk to my parents about not staying in columbus all summer.
i don't think i realized how much i was going to love kennesaw. but i really do. i love it here so much. i knew getting out of columbus would be good for me but i didn't realize how good.
also, i'm not going back to chick-fil-a wynnton road. i'll miss daniel (operator) and some of the other employees, but i just don't want to go back there. it's too much drama.

i just have to work out how i'll do that...maybe alternate weeks or two weeks? my paychecks are going to SUCK...i won't be able to save up money this summer...maybe i could work two weeks here, two weeks in columbus...but i really don't want to go back to chickfila wynnton road. uggh...i don't know. all i can hope for is that my parents will support me. or that i figure out my major and it has so many classes that i have to take summer classes...hahahah.

maybe we're not meant to be.

2009-02-26T11:46:00.004-05:00

i deposited my paycheck after french this morning.

oh, and i made an 86 on my French test!! (: yay! ugh my mistakes were so stupid though. I was writing a sentence saying "there were two cars", which in french is "il y avait deux voitures"...i wrote CARS instead of VOITURES. wtf?!?!?! haahaha. i also forgot to connect le accident by the apostrophe--it should be l'accident.

stupid stuff. cars, honestly.

haha. i'm glad to have money in the bank again, tis nice!

now, i don't have science until 2, and then chorus got cancelled today (DANG IT), so ihave plenty of time to catch up on homework before work.

i'm going to be a better student!!!!!

and now, i leave you with a song. not all of it is accurate but it's pretty close. ha!

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me,
And knowing if I give that to you, I might just disappear
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
Oh It's like
One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do, you're always mad
And I can't change your mind
Oh It's like
Trying to turn around on a one-way street
I can't give you what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I tried
It's hard to believe that there's no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our life.
There's still time to turn this around,
You and me building this up, instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking maybe it's too late.

sometimes

2009-02-25T22:27:00.002-05:00

all it really takes to make you think straight is a nice long conversation with your best friend.

HAHA. man, i am sooooo stupid.

i am SO EXCITED about everything God has in store for me, i'm wasting time mulling over past decisions and etc. I mean, of course I'll have lapses when my feelings go all emo and pity party on me

But I'm really excited. I was scared about what I was doing at first. Did I make the right choice? Will I be happy?

But who CARES!? I'm going to be happy because what's the point in being sad? life is entirely too short to worry about stuff, so I'm living life in the moment and forgetting about the past.

Good morning, world. Haha.

Oh and Lindsey, you're the BEST. You really are the best friend any person could ever want in their life. I know I say it a lot but you really are the biggest inspiration in my life. I love you so, so much.

Goodnight everyone. :)

ponderings.

2009-02-25T12:19:00.003-05:00

hmmm. so, i'm pretty happy. i had a very fabulous night last night. :)

the only thing that's still bothering me is chris.
i really don't like him trying to rub things in my face.
like, oh well you can like someone well i can too.
good for you?

well, anyway, it's not like i don't care about him. as i've said entirely too many times. i do. i really thought i was going to marry him. but, i'm past that now because we want different things and we're on different maturity levels.

i'll just say, i didn't think about it at all last night :)
fantasticness!

i had a really bad stomachache this morning and now i'm super hungry because i couldn't eat. rahhhh.

do i seem bitter at all?
i probably am. i care about people entirely too much.

i'm a superfox!!!

2009-02-24T11:50:00.003-05:00

heehee. so, lindsey recommended this book to me that i bought. it's called

"It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken"

And it was AMAZING. I guess technically it was directed at girls who were the victim, not the perpetrator, of the heart breaking. But anyways,knowing that he is interested in a new girl as affected me like nothing I expected. So I read it. And it's soooo good. I feel so empowered now.

I am now 100% positive i made the right choice. I don't know what God has in store but I know that this is His plan and things are going to work out fabulously!!

I'm happy with where I am. I'm exploring my options (in many ways, haha) and I know that I'm just scared of things being different.

I welcome the change.
All things in time.
Taking things slow = WIN.

Quick thank you to my friends (esp. Lindsey) for putting up with my whiny bullcrap. (: I love you lots

Ohhh I don't want to go to science today.

love is a many trousered thing.

2009-02-22T23:09:00.001-05:00

i didn't think it was going to suck this bad for him to actually do what i told him to do. hahaha.

but, c'est la via. as lindsey said, this is what i wanted. which it is. no secret there. i'm very happy with my current situation. so i just have to deal with it and get on with my life. c'est fini!!

and on that note i am quite happy indeed, i got to spend a weekend with heather and it was really fun. i got a new outfit that i'm very excited about! i can't wait to wear it. i just don't know when i will, because honestly, who am i going to show off for? my classmates? yeah, no. haha

my new video game is disappointing, i much prefer regular kingdom hearts because in chain of memories you have to use cards, and the cards disappear after you use them and you have to refill them which delays your battle time....beating the first boss has been nearly impossible for me so far.

anyways..hahaha. this week is going to be good. probably not as good as last week since i only have tomorrow off, instead of 3 consecutive days, but oh well (:

oh no storm can shake my inmost calm, while to that rock i'm clinging.

2009-02-17T16:49:00.001-05:00

hello one and all, welcome to another day in my life...c'est tres magnifique, oui?

french is getting so difficult! all the silly grammar rules and whatnots...and irregular things to memorize.. however i can now use multiple forms of negatives, kind of..haha.
i didn't go to science today. i think theonly reason i ever do is to see stephanie, all the teacher does is put up a powerpoint and talk.

i lovelovelove chorus. i love our music. i love our teacher. on a sadder note, i think this one girl that got engaged over christmas may've broken up with her boyfriend, she wasn't wearing her ring and she looked tres depressed :(

i have an english paper coming up that i was NOT aware of in the slightest...shouldn't be too hard though, it's just a comparison paper, easy peasy.

i'm so dull all i ever talk about is school! haha. that's because my life is comprised of school and work and..that's it.

I love you all very much my little chums. Au revoir. (:

oh ps, i almost nearly forgot to update my love list!!
1. I don't need to be in a relationship to be happy.
2. No one likes a complainer.

you're the only thing i know like the back of my hand.

2009-02-16T13:06:00.000-05:00

hmm what an INTERESTING month this has been.

well, i broke up with Chris. And it wasn't easy. I've come to realize that I don't need a guy to be happy and right now I really need to focus on school because I've gotten behind. I was so proud of my all A's last semester and I dont' want to turn up with a C this time around! Also, I think he and I both have a lot of maturing to do before we're ready for such a serious relationship. i'm not ready yet. it wasn't easy because I really could picture myself with him forever, in a way I haven't with anyone before.

But I need to work on school and my relationship with myself. I dont' need to be in a relationship. I have to love myself and be happy on my own before I can consider making anyone else happy, so I know I can' tmake him happy right now.

God, please help me through this. It isn't easy. You know that.

I mean, I really do want to get married...i really want that, it's important to me. But I just can't right NOW. If I find that someone that I can spend forever with--which I thought I had with Chris--great, but it needs to be someone who understands that I have other things to focus on right now before I can take that wonderful step.

On other notes, Valentine's Day was nice despite the post-VDay break up scenario. Heather is coming to visit me this weekend, and Lindsey and I are going to hang out the first weekend of March! Yay it's almost spring break :) Well, winter break part 2 minus christmas, as i call it..hahaha. And I'm kidnapping Megan to come to Columbus sometime in march (: I'M SO EXCITED.

I can't wait to see everyone ESPECIALLY LINDSEY because I miss the crap out of her :(

I'm going to make a love list, and goals, for myself so that I can mend myself. How can I love someone, but not myself?
Every day, I'm going to add something to the list, and copy paste from the previous one, so I never forget.

I don't need to be in a relationship to be happy.

it's been a while.

2009-02-05T14:59:00.001-05:00

indeed it has, and i don't feel comfortable talking about everything that's happened to me here. but i had a pretty nice day today. i had a test in science which didn't go as badly as i thought it would. it was fairly nice out today, could've done without the wind, but you can't have everything!

dear God,
You know how horrible I am at trying to keep a thoughtstream going, so that is why I've decided to type out my prayers and stuff. You know what I"m going through right now and what it's doing to me, and I really need guidance and help that only You can give me. I keep asking my friends to help but they can only do so much. Which, by the way, thank You for Lindsey because she really keeps me sane in a way other people cannot. :) I don't want to worry about this anymore, so please help me to let go of this so You can handle it in Your way, because my plans are nothing next to Yours, as good as I may think my plans are...thank You for the lovely day today, and thank You for Lindsey having a good day because she deserves lots of those, don't You think? :) Oh, and thank You for hot chocolate. I had 2 cups today and it was wonderful. :)
Thank You for your understanding...I know I don't deserve forgiveness for the way I've been towards you. I think You're probably okay with me not being 'religious', because you know that I believe in You and Your Son, and that's all that really matters, isn't it? :) I love you.

opposites don't always attract

2009-01-28T15:57:00.000-05:00

today is quite opposite from my last post. i have tons of homework to do, josh and heather are very angry at me for something that is quite reasonably their fault, one of my friends may be pregnant...

But I know that God is going to work all this out for me, somehow.
It feels so weird talking to/about God. I haven't done it in so long. I hope He can help me figure everything out.

Anyways, on happier notes, I am having company Friday (: My lovely Megan, Andy, Steven, maybe Jameson & Christy are all coming over for Clue/a movie/Uno/whatever other wackiness we get in to. Also, I get to see Chris this weekend, though it will be tempered by the aforementioned angry tension.

I talked to my wonderful friend, Whitney, about the whole thing...her and heather used to be bffls. Whitney agrees with me that Heather's personality has definitely turned inward--that is to say, leaning more towards the self centered--and we really want to talk to her about it, but don't know how to approach her.

I feel so bad because i want to be a good person and say that I love her so much and it's killing me to see her like this...
..but sadly..I'm an awful person, and i'm really just completely fed up with her crap.

I wish I were a better friend.
I feel like such a lousy person.

:/
I need to do something.
I think I may go wash my hair.

Au revoir, lovelies.

people like people and sometimes we change our minds.

2009-01-26T13:08:00.000-05:00

i had such a fabulous day today, at least so far.

i had coffee this morning (thanks mom for buying it for me!) and was actually cogniscent (sp?) for english.
on my way back, a boy actually opened a heavy door for me and held it open. you don't see chivalry like that much anymore. i smiled at him and said thank you so much! i hope he knows how much that kind of gesture is appreciated.
i feel so at peace with life. even though math was kind of satanic today, but it'll get better (:
i just feel so much joy and love for everyone and everything in this world.
i want to feel like this every day.

i'm eating spaghetti and vanilla coke (: yessss!!!!!

on a less happy note, obama is starting to ruin our country already :/ abortion practicioners and companies, etc are now able to get funds, and guantanomo bay is getting shut down. i'm so worried for our country but i hope he can at least pull a few good policies out of his hat. i'm trying to not complain too much because no matter how mad i get it won't stop him from doing what he wants.

i love you all
(especially LWD. ESPECIALLY HER.) :)

stupid. wind.

2009-01-20T22:32:00.000-05:00

as thankful as i am for the cold weather, i am utterly loathing this wind. The wind is so bad that i can't open my eyes and it burns. It's so awful :( The weather would be almost perfect if the wind would back off.

In other news, I haven't posted in a while because I haven't really known what to say.
For anyone reading this blog besides Lindsey, I am adopted. I have known this all my life..
And I just found out this weekend that I have two brothers.
And also I am part Canadian but that's not as important :P

It's just kind of...shocking. When I pictured finding my family I never considered siblings. I've always been an only child..it's weird. One is a year older and one is a year younger than me. Steven and David Williamson. At least I'm pretty sure that's the last name they go by. My mom and I are going to the health department the next time I'm in town to look up records on my family.

Let's see...oh I'm loving my classes.
English is easy but I'm having a hard time keeping track of assignments. Stupid 8 am class.
Math is also easy....for now. And I'm not looking forward to the tests.
French is fantastic. Today my teacher called a girl a crazy slut. She knew he was kidding, no worries :P
Science is easy, again for now. Lol.
Chorus is also fantastic, my teacher keeps asking me to sing out and to help other students which makes me feel quite lovely indeed (:

I need tips on how to get Chris to stop being so posessive. He was upset because Andy, Megan, and Steven came over tonight to play clue and watch grease. He would be so happy if I had no social life up here :/ But on the other hand, I need to stop being so sensitive. I got upset yesterday when he played his gameboy while i sat on the couch watching tv, and I got upset at him for being gloomy when his team lost the championship game.

I really want to go to disney world. I wish our spring break was at a decent time. march 7-13...in what world is that SPRING!? in the northern hemisphere, at least.

i'm excited for valentine's day.

i need to check homework and stuff...so..ta ta.

run run run as fast as you can!

2009-01-15T19:04:00.000-05:00

today was a very good day. except for all the wind, and french class being cancelled :(

the wind was soooo bad today. my face and ears were burning. :(

BUT after chorus which was and always is awesome, me and miss awesome megan mason went running. and it wasn't even very bad. i mean i don't run much so my chest was clinching up but it wasn't awful. we're going to be running buddies! :) afterwards we went to chick-fil-a. i think i left my fruit cup in the car...hmm i better go check that >.> i smell a tradition!!

anyways i have a few more things to do tonight before i go to work at SIX THIRTYYY in the morning. i can't wait tomorrow i get to see my baby again!! :)

good morning, everyone

2009-01-15T08:56:00.000-05:00

i have a few minutes before i have to leave for french, so i thought i'd snap in a quick post.

i really am enjoying school. my teachers are insane. my french teacher talks about fat asses (exact words there, folks...lol), my math teacher dresses up like zorro, my chorus teacher is very bouncy..haha, and i dunno its fun (:

they're training me on dishes at work. BLAH. on the bright side, i get to get away from customers and stuff, but the sanitizer we use messes with my skin so yay my hands are raw.

i feel kinda bad sometimes, i've lost touch with a lot of people that i used to consider my closest friends. maybe i'm just inconsiderate but i just don't think to call people. it's not that i don't care it's that i dont THINK. lol.

last night i looked in the mirror and saw that i had handles...3 pairs of them.
so starting tonight i'm starting a work out routine. i dunno how it'll go because i don't really have time for exercise, but i'm off work tonight so i guess that's a good place to start.

time to get walking.
au revoir!

yaaaay school

2009-01-13T18:03:00.000-05:00

So classes are chugging along, as much as they can chug, anyhow. Maybe science won't be too bad. It's still the worst though! Haha, but regardless, everything is smooth sailing right now.

Today, Chris sent me a random text while he was at work saying he loved me and couldn't wait to hold me this weekend.
I think everyone deserves a guy like him.
Except for him..you can't have him! (:

I have retarded hours again. I know Morgan tries her best with the schedule, but my hours are pitiful. 4-close yesterday, 7-close today (that's only 3 1/2 hours), 5-close tomorrow, 6:30-2 friday.

Three day weekend this weekend which means...Columbus tiiime! (:

Oh andI might be a Residential Assistant next year which means FREE RENT!!!!!!!!!

Anywho, I'm so hungry. So i might go to work early and get some food.

And that's about it.

the weekend of NOTHING commences.

2009-01-09T20:50:00.001-05:00

i had a fairly productive day today. mostly.

i woke up and went and bought books. three books = $233.50
yeah tell me HOPE doesn't need to give us more than $150 for books.
i spent like 70 dollars out of pocket. BLAH

also i went to verizon to get my phone fixed. apparently it just needed a software update? lol. so while they were doing that i had lunch at chick-fil-a and went to the mall. i bought chris a present, a new eagles shirt. when i have more money, i'm going to buy him a jersey.

oh how i wish i were rich.

also, is it sad that i nearly cried listening to avril lavigne's "when you're gone" today?
i miss him :(

in other news, lindsey go read my myspace blog.

and that's about it. i have NOTHING to do this weekend except tomorrow night i'm probably going to have to be a designated driver at erica's birthday party. as much fun as that sounds, i wish chris had his car or LINDSEY COULD GET AWAY!!! and come visit me =P

anywho, probably going to watch charmed until bed.
goodnight one and all.

who am i?

2009-01-08T21:25:00.000-05:00

Well for those of you randomly stumbling upon my blog thingy, my name is Christy and I am an 18 year old second semester freshman at Kennesaw State University. I have no idea what I want to do with my life and I am the only person lucky enough to be able to say "my friends are the best" and truly mean it :) I also like mexican food.

Anyways...
so it's a brand spanking new year. it doesn't really feel new. but here we are. 19 years from my birth year and 5 months from my birthday. i don't especially like growing up but some parts of it i'm excited for. like getting married. and graduating college. and actually figuring out what i want to do one day. i've gotta go somewhere with my life, and i seem to be one of the only people i know that hasn't figured that out yet. hmmmmmm. i'm sure i will eventually though. God has a plan even if I don't know what it is yet.

I'm going to try not to make this too long of a first post so I will hyphenate some things
-I am going to stop talking about people. Seriously. Punch me if I start talking bad about someone around you.
-Chris is the best boyfriend eeeeeeeever :) I lovelovelove him.
-Verizon needs to fix my phone. NOW.
-I need to study more this semester.
-I need to stop cursing.

Oh and one last thing

I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE MY BEST FRIEND LINDSEY DELLINGER <3333

Bai. :3